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Nocturne opened on Christmas Day.

It had opened on Christmas Day for as long as there had been a Christmas Day to open on, and it would no more have occurred to Jax to close than it would have occurred to the stairs to stop going down. Christmas was not, whatever the high road believed, a day off from weather. It was the weather’s masterpiece: the one day of the year engineered to be spent somewhere, with someone, so that anyone who had neither was left standing entirely outside the calendar, in the cold, watching the whole world be indoors without them. The roof did not editorialise about this. The roof opened.

He came down at midday and did the provisions: the urn scalded, the first-aid tin checked, the old radio squared on its shelf and the latest book beside it, the mince pies from the bakery that pretended not to know who the standing order was for, set out on the bar under a cloth. The coloured lights over the back bar burned for nobody. He had put them up in the first week of December, the way he did every year, and he would take them down in the first week of January, the way he did every year, and in all the years of it he had never once commented on them, because some things a room was owed without discussion.

At two in the afternoon, with the doors not due open until seven, he was in the cellar counting crates when he heard, above him, through the old floor, the sound of his own lock.

The stick of it, first. The frost had it, the way the frost always had it. Then the small competent pause of somebody adjusting, and then the lift, and the turn, clean, the bolt going over like a sentence agreed to, and the black door opening at the top of his stairs on a day with no Thursday in it anywhere.

Two people on earth had a key to that door.

Jax stood in his cellar among the crates and listened to the stairs report her, step by step, unhurried, down into the low gold light, and he found that he had put down the clipboard, and that he was smiling, alone, in a cellar, like an idiot, and he allowed it for the length of one breath, because there was nobody to see, and then he filed it where he filed everything and went up.

She was standing in the middle of his room in her winter coat with frost on her shoulders, looking at the coloured lights.

“You lift it on the turn,” said Cal.

“Mm,” said Jax. “You do.”

“It stuck first try.”

“It sticks for everyone. It’s a door, not a miracle.” He went behind the bar and put the kettle on, because a day that started with the kettle went right in ways you could not always trace forward, and she came and took the end stool, hers, with the whole room to choose from, five days early or two days late depending how you kept the books, and he made the terrible tea in the terrible pot, and the room held the three of them, him and her and the lights, in the quiet of the early afternoon of the day that belonged to nobody’s ritual.

“You’re not open,” said Cal.

“Not till seven.”

“I know.” She had her hands around the cup. “That’s why I came at two.”

And there it was, laid on the bar between them, plain as brass: not a Thursday, not a custom, not a station of any ritual either of them kept; a day off every ledger there was; and she had crossed the city on it, through the frost, past the windows of the whole indoor world, and let herself in with his key to sit in an unopen room, and no arithmetic anywhere could file it as anything but chosen. He drew his own tea and stood across from her and did not say any of that, and she did not say any of that, and the lights burned over the back bar, uncommented, and the afternoon was, by some distance, the best provision anyone had ever brought down his stairs.

“I brought the bird its costs,” said Cal, and put a packet of digestives on the bar.

Jax looked at it.

“The court ruled,” she said, with dignity. “Costs were awarded. It’s Christmas. I don’t want it said the librarian doesn’t honour a judgment.”

“It’s a pigeon.”

“It’s a creature capable of love. There’s case law.”

“Mm,” said Jax, and put the digestives with the provisions, between the first-aid tin and the old radio, where the roof’s true supplies lived, and if his hand rested one second on the low shelf, on a tin one inch from the front of it, on the way back, neither of them remarked on that either.

The doors opened at seven, and Christmas came down the stairs.

It came the way it came every year, in ones and twos, out of the earliest dark of the calendar: the old boy first, in a tie, because it was Christmas; the good-coat thing on its unhurried rotation, unseasonal and punctual; a young man nobody knew who stood at the foot of the stairs the way you stand in a doorway you’re not sure you’re allowed through, and was inside a warm corner with a drink he hadn’t ordered before he had finished deciding; and Bill.

Bill came at eight, in his good jacket, and took his table, and Jax brought him his pint, and on the tray beside it, unasked, unattributed, in the roof’s way, a mince pie with a candle in it. Not lit. Just there. Bill looked at it for a while, and did not say anything, and did not need to, and some hours later, at the door, on his way up into the cold, he paused the way he sometimes paused, and this time he said it, quietly, to the room in general, in the manner of the establishment:

“She used to like these. The candle.”

“Mm,” said Jax.

“Same again next year,” said Bill, which was not a question, and went up the stairs into Christmas night, and the door swung to behind him, and the room held what it held.

Cal stayed the whole of it.

That was the thing Jax noted, through the evening, at the corner of everything: she stayed. She sat at the end of the bar through the whole slow warm running of the strangest congregation in London, watching his room do the one thing it was for, and she saw it all, he knew she saw it all, because seeing was what she was; she saw the unordered drinks arrive and the unlit candle and the young man’s corner and the coin from the good-coat thing going into the odd compartment; she watched the keeper keep, on the keeping’s highest day, and somewhere in the middle of the evening he looked up from the pumps and caught her watching him with the expression he had a column for now, and this time he did not go back to the pumps straight away, and she did not look away, and the room ran on around the held line of it, and that, too, went unfiled anywhere but in two heads.

At close, the faithful went up. She helped with the chairs. He cashed up, and banked the odd coin with the others, and the room came down to its low gold light and its lights over the back bar, and they stood at the bottom of the stairs in their coats, the whole day folded up behind them like a table cloth.

“Thursday?” said Cal.

“Thursday,” said Jax.

She went up two stairs, and stopped, and turned, the streetlight coming down the stairwell behind her, the frost-smell, the cold, the whole indoor world outside.

“Happy Christmas, Jax.”

“Mm,” said Jax. “It has been.”

She looked at him for the length of a held sentence, and then she went up, and he heard the black door open, and the small pause, and the lock go over, clean, from the outside, lifted on the turn: his own door, locked for the first time in its long life by a hand that was not his, keeping his room for him from the street side, and he stood at the bottom of his stairs and listened to her steps fade along the frost toward the corner, and then it was quiet.

He turned off the lights.

All but two: the one over the end of the bar, for the berth; and the coloured ones over the back bar, which had a week of December left in them, and had earned it.

The room held its low gold dark. The digestives sat with the provisions. The tin sat one inch from the front of the shelf. And the door at the top of the stairs stood locked against the winter by somebody else’s hand, which was, if you kept the books the way he kept them, the finest Christmas present a keeper had ever been given, and he had no intention of ever saying so, and he walked home through the cold with the whole day filed where nothing could reach it.

It has been, he had said.

It had.